I honestly wasn’t sure I was going to be here. Actually, I wasn’t sure I was going to be here last week.
A couple of times over the last few months, I’ve thought about taking a break from blogging.
Between the baby and the rest of our lives, we don’t have a lot of time for projects or home improvements, so I don’t feel like I have as much material to write about.
As well, sometimes blogging has felt like a luxury among all of the other ways I could be spending my time.
But obviously writing is important to me.
I love writing for the same reason that I love home improvements–they’re both creative outlets for me. While home improvement is a way for me to turn off my brain and not think for a little while, writing is a way for me to think more deeply, work through things and process parts of my life.
And these days, my brain feels very full.
So I’m here. And as I did last year, I’m going to start the year with a word to help guide me through 2019.
This year, my word is “slow.”
Since having Ellie, I’ve found that I’m often rushing. With a baby, I have a narrow window of naptime, or “she’s-content-playing-by-herself-but-this-won’t-last,” or “we-have-to-eat-dinner- bath-and-go-to-bed-before-she-gets-overtired.” So whatever I’m doing, I try to do it as fast as possible. I’d like to slow down and focus on what I’m doing.
As well, I want to remember that I don’t always have to be doing. Sure there are always things to do. But sometimes reading my book or sitting down with Matt and Ellie and Baxter is the thing I should do.
Life is short. Usually shorter than we want. Occasionally shorter than we can ever conceive. We have to do our absolute best to live a life that we are satisfied with. I want to feel good about what I do, who I am with and how I spend my time. And the word “spend” is important. Time is valuable. Time is precious.
This year I will be slow and savour my time.