
“Gratitude turns what we have into enough”
Aesop
We celebrated Thanksgiving this weekend. When I think of what I’m thankful for, my answer is everything.
I can’t write a list like I did in the past because the list wouldn’t stop. I can’t single out one thing because they’re all magical.
We live each day with so much love and joy. And I try to make it enough.
I’ve been thinking of this Thanksgiving post all week. Trying to figure out what to write. When I found this quote it summed up what I felt. It was enough.
But tonight. Late at night. As I tap away on my phone (not my preferred way to write), my thoughts are different.
I am still filled with love and joy. Always.
But when I think about what comes after Thanksgiving three years ago this becomes a very hard time of year. I slide back easily and remember what each day was and what we were marching toward.
One giant, terrible hole. That is still with us. All the time. I am not grateful for the hole.
What I have of Matt is not enough.
So I live with the hole. I live with the love. I live with the joy. I am thankful. And I work to make it enough.